sometimes you think you are smart,

but at last you found that you are only a fool.

 

Sometimes you think you are very nice,

but later you found that you are mean.

 

Sometimes you are sure about yourself,

but maybe you are only fooling yourself.

 

...

 

Everybody is bothered by it's own trouble.

You do, I do, he does, she does, everyone...

 

 

They looked at each other

obsessed with each other

couldn't help,

but keep staring at each other

couldn't help,

but keep smiling

just like two idiots.

 

Sometimes, she doubts that if the feelings are real or still exist?

But everytime when it was in that moment,

she was sure he is the guy she has feelings for,

no doubt

no doubt

 

ha, What would that be when two idiots meet in real?

 idiot + idiot = ?

Must be interesting~  

 

Got a talk with KKJ today.

Haven't gotten in touch with him for a long time.

It's always nice talking and hanging out with him, always enjoyable.

Kinda miss the days we hang out together.

That makes me looking so much forward to his coming next month.

I am jealousing his busy life while he does the same to my idle life.

Ha,

And he suggested me to make use of the time to prepare for a master.

hmm... master, master...

when I will ever gonna be able to take that?

do I ever need that?

Or do I ever want that?

 

Well, I've been planning to take that for long.

Yet, couldn't be able to afford that.

If only we can apply for a loan as easy as that in some western countries.

Or

if only I win a lottery and become a millionaire suddently! (ha, how that comes as I don't buy lottery)

Just read Lee's space.

She said after all these years wandering, she finally settle down to enjoy home.

That makes me wonder where my home is.

I know if my parents and my sister know that they must feel sad by how I feel, but it's true that I couldn't feel "home" here.

I don't know why.

Maybe it's because I've been living on the campus for years, actually, it's been 11 years.

I couldn't find the right clue to stay with them, to feel that we are a family.

Sometimes, when I come back, listening to their conversation, I always feel that I am only a guest here. They are family.

It's kinda frustrated.

When i am in dorm, it's not my home.

When i am staying with Surline, it's not even my belongings

WHen I am home, I don't have the feeling that I am home.

I am not familier with my bed,

Sounds like I am a homeless.

 

When will I have a home belongs to me?

 

Should I spend some more time with my family to make myself to be one of them and be one of the family?

 

Or should I find someone to married and have a new home?

Suddently,

I miss my 4 years in the university.

How time flies, it's been 4 years!

I've always been complaining about my life in this uni and want to get out of that

But suddently,

I miss that

I miss Cole,

he is not my bf, but he is the most important person in these four years

I enjoy his company so much,

without him, couldn't imagine what would that like

I had so much fun with him 

I miss Gillian, Jackie, May, Joy, Noel, Christine, Joseph, Jay, Apple,Cecilia, Miss Xiao, Yin,...

Miss Gillian, this annoying gf who kept picking on me.

But thank her that I learned a lot

Miss Jackie, miss the days we hang out and share each other's fun

Miss May, who I thought we didn't match, but we got alone very well eventually and I was kinda addicted to her too. hehe...

Miss Joy, my first good friend

Miss Noel, my very closed friend

Miss Christine, my sweetest roommate

...

Miss everything, everything in this uni.

 

...>_<...

Poor poor me, have to rewrite my paper~

Having struggled for almost 6 hours la~

Only finished 1/4~

3 more quaters to go~